Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretence. It's the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.
True meditation is letting go of manipulating our experience.
The Truth doesn't answer anything. The Truth IS everything!
Misery needs your conspiracy; it needs your help. Without your resistance misery cannot survive.
Has it ever occurred to you that you are seeking God with His eyes?
You must choose between your attachments and happiness.